special to my bro (never too late)

This world will never be
What you expected
And if you don't belong
Who would have guessed it
You will not leave alone
Everything that you own
To make you feel like it's not too late
It's never too late

Even if I say
It'll be alright
I hear you say
You want to end your life
Now and again we try
To just stay alive
Maybe we'll turn it all around
'Cause it's not too late
It's never too late

No one will ever see
This side reflected
And if there's something wrong
Who would have guessed it
And you have left alone
Everything that you own
To make your surround feel like
It's not too late
It's never too late

The world we knew
Won't come back
The time we've lost
Can't get back
The life we had
Won't be ours again
Yet, remember it's never too late

~loving~

when u got to love...
is neither u were happy together
nor u were being sad of getting reject...
having her was not necessary a perfect things,
hence, without her life are still great to carry on...

when u lost the love...
remember that one day it will find u too...
or someday everything will be fade...
leaving everything into memories...
but for sure u were happy to have it once...
rather than u never hold on before...

giving out my love...
was is right or wrong???
no one can answer till u walk along the path...
maybe getting hurt again might makes u even numb...
but no one tell that happiness was not behind there...

all my love for u...
it does not matter whether u were belong to mine at last...
is really true that having or lost...
will only be a faith...
unknowingly i already fall deep for u...

i don't know how to express...
to let u know that my love was real...
till one day...
u going to found out sooner or later...
hold on tight...u will beloved too...

i love you....

from your eyes,

i see myself,

the most happiest reflection,

the chemistry that we hold in our hands,

is our guidance for tomorrow.

no matter near or far,

in what century,

embracing in heaven,

or wondering in the wilderness...

i love you,

i dare and want to go,

to whatever fate that unknown...

i love you,

i am willing,

to let you decide and take control.

occasionally, i don't really understand you,

but who really understand themselves?

often, when two person get closer,

it is proven by hurt...

like being anxious and worried,

i will be heart throwing,

afraid to show that you are afraid,

so you become angry....

i love you,

let me know ,

when you are tired or scared,

i love you,

i wanted to kiss...

your heart at it's most stubborn,

i hold up all the love,

to block the wind and rain,

blocking out the storm,

wanting to let you breathe,

the faith that was out,

need times to heal....

dreams tangled up with suspicion,

the future cannot be seen clearly,

a tight embrace can be deliver,

energy and courage...

going everywhere together,

watching the stars together,

walking out of the forest together,

tasting memories together,

misunderstanding and jealous together,

watching the sun after the rain together....

yet i can't not have you,

i love you...

when you think of me,

open up this box,

my love...will stay with you in there,

you need to wait for me...

and i won't be going anywhere,

and wait for you just here.

~how are you lately? ~

picking a Christmas card,
filling it with best wishes,
addressing it to the heart,
would you be able to received it?

the weather is a bit cold,
the wind is a bit strong,
the city is quiet with noise.

this winter,
i am going home alone,
asking myself,
have i gotten used to it....

without you at night,
the echoes become very loud,
is there a good way,
to let the loneliness listen to me?

how are you lately?
are you struggling on the inside too?
you said you remember me....remember?

how are you lately?
are you busy? tired?
does your heart still hurt?
if you really need to, just forget me,
quickly head for happiness.

even if i have more worries,
i don't have the right to express it,
an ex-lover's greetings,
is more awkward than a stranger's.

yesterday is far,
tomorrow is longer,
memories are blurry yet huge.

this kind of night,
how can i stop tears from falling??

I'm not Worthy

this street is too crowded,
too many people with secrets,
at the glass, there's the fog hidden from it,
the sulky face of yours,
is completing the rain...

this street is simply too narrow to return to the story,
these days are not green anymore,
just a few words exchanges,
i'm left alone in the house,
with half-filled memories...

the seats in the cinema,
are separated far by distances,
feelings with no partner is a game,
of chess you played by yourself...

it's too late to carefully write down your concern,
describing how i love you,
yet you leave me away with a smile,
this feeling is not right anymore...

i tried hard to retrieve,
a bit feeling of care that i didn't give,
the many wishes from your lips is very pretty and low,
i neglected to compromise it...

however you want some company,
the feeling is not right anymore,
i'm the last to understand...

looking through the pages of circumstances which cannot be endure,
you're so tired,
you have silently cried behind my back for age...

so many times,
so sallow,
yet my heart breaks and you accepted my sin,
your beauty,
I'm not Worthy.

~rain in my heart~

the green leaves of the oak tree,
the white bamboo fence,
she, who really wants to tell me,
it is like a painting here,
the christmas card from last year,
the scraggly beard in the mirror,
the picture begins to not have her,
i'm still pretending to be the fool,
you said you would make scented tea for me,
learn how to lay knives and forks down,
the student dormitory,
the deserted home,
i'm waiting by the phone,
yet she doesn't come,
the rain in my heart downpours,
still cannot wet her hair,
the tear corona opens the feeling of missing you on the postcard,
that sadness in fact does not have any time difference,
the rain in my heart downpours,
still it cannot drench her,
the cold wind has already passed the branches in the courtyard,
and it has cooled down the fresh flowers in my heart...

~goodbye~

rain, just keeps on falling...

i stare outside the street...

you know i will wait for you...

you say" no i don't love you"...

leaving me alone in pain and sorrow...

there leaves me no choice...

but i keep running from the truth...

when your tears drop in my heart...

an eternal bond exists...

how to say goodbye...

oh i miss you...

you know better but you keep on asking why...

love will slowly turn into my heart's regret...

i betray myself to complete your hope...

letting off my hands...

without saying goodbye...

treat it as my love for you for one last time...

love will slowly close the door inside your heart...

for one last time let me hold your hand in mine...

together we will smile...

Love With No Regrets

hiding from my vision, always lingering beside, can guess that love is not present...

after happily playing and laughing, and able to totally retreat...

as long as you are happy is enough...

this kind of feeling is too loving and warm...

to speak a thousand phrases would be insufficient...

what if you were to hear it and afterwards leave...

this kind of love is too rare, doesn't need completely process...

giving approval, give (my) blesing unheartedly, then let go...

let go, let go of everything, both would have a greater freedom...

let go; in fact it's not because i do not love enough...

let go, let go of everything without reserve, will still have a good friend...

it's already...already enough...

from a distance, in the background of "universal silence"...

just observing is enough...

even though there was an instant, on impulse where i wanted to hold your hand...

even with heaviness of heart (it's best) to let go...

let go, my memories (of you) cannot find an ending...

let go, wish you will have happiness and everything...

maybe, love is very deep, but i have already seen it through...

can only possess when (you) let go...

AnGeL iN mY hEaRt

i heard a whisper that touched deep inside my soul...like some familiar melody,

a hidden chapter from a story left untold...i got a feeling...i could believe in...

there is an angel in my heart... feels like i'm guided by a candle in the dark,

it's taken all this time to finally find out... what i could never see...you were there for me.

now there is no doubt...that there will always be an angel in my heart...

you were the friend...you were the one i could confide in,

you gave me strengh that i could never find...

deep emotions that i've always denying i believe in...it's so close now,

it's you that i'm feeling...

i finally found out...what i've been searching for (all my life)...

it was right before my eyes.

you were my angel...i'll always know you'll be there...

you are my one and only angel.

~ a Compromised Love ~

you always love to make up lies,
(and) i'm always responsible for acting out scenes,
all the changes are... so i could step into your world.

this scene has repeated a hundred times,
only then i realised your heart is too wild,
you drew the border between us,
(and) i must not break the rules.

all my time have been prioritised for you,
unknowingly, i'm so in love to the point that i dare not take any risks,
having been your puppet for one year (then) two years,
that's when i realised how pathetic i am.

a compromised love, still remains unsolved in the end,
tied you up not letting you fly away,
(but) history keeps repeating itself, i'm exhausted.

a compromised love, yet the story could not be rewritten,
once you made your ultimatum,
i hid in my own world.

you're just afraid of sleeping by yourself,
i no longer want to shed my tears for you,
i understand you will not change,
(so) no more pondering.

i shall begin tomorrow by myself.....